ST NEOTS high jumper Robbie Grabarz left the European Indoor Championships in Paris somewhat red-faced but hes convinced hell be in the pink by the time the summer rolls around. In his first major senior international competition, the 23-year-old cleared 2.12m but then fluffed his lines with all three attempts at 2.17m. The 2009 English under-23 champion would have needed another 10 centimetres to advance to the final and his best effort was a full 16cm down on his personal best, set last year in Cardiff. As a result, Grabarz struggled to find positives from his Parisian outing, although with the European U23 Championships and the senior World Championships on the horizon this summer, he remains convinced his disappointment will be the exception, not the rule. It was really disappointing, it was my first major senior international competition and to be honest its a bit disheartening and embarrassing to perform like that, admitted Grabarz. There are no excuses really, my run-up just wasnt right all day and so I just didnt perform anywhere near as well as I know I can. Im in great physical shape at the moment and know that Im capable of a lot better. There arent really that many positives to take other than the fact that this is my first competition and things will have to get better. Looking ahead its a very exciting summer. I feel great and in the best shape Ive ever been in so if I go away and do plenty of work on my run-up and get things right then I think the future is very bright. In competing in his first senior GB vest, Grabarz could be forgiven for a few butterflies on the eve of his international bow where he was competing against the likes of world and European indoor champion Ivan Ukhov of Russia. But the Loughborough University athlete revealed he was too relaxed at the Palais Omnisports de Paris-Bercy and admitted that is something he will have to rectify. I expected to be nervous and that was playing on my mind beforehand but to be honest I think that I relaxed too much, added Grabarz. I think you need a certain amount of nerves and I just didnt really have any, You need to get the adrenalin pumping but I wasnt at that stage and so thats something Ill have to work on at major competitions. > Aviva, supporting British athletes since 1999. To watch British athletes in action this summer at the Aviva Series call 08000 556 056 or go to www.aviva.co.uk\/athletics for more information.